The Final Chapter

Dear Giver,

I want to begin this letter with an apology. I know that you believe expressing one's regret and saying sorry is unnecessary and a waste of time for us. It's something I've become accustomed to, ever since our first lesson where I apologized for interrupting you, and you yourself said there wasn't any time in our busy schedule for formal apologies. Remember that? Anyway, I am apologizing for the fact that I did not appear at the Annex as you had asked. I am sorry for disobeying your rules, but I was afraid of what you would say if you realized that I planned to take baby Gabriel with me on my journey to Elsewhere. I was aware that when I didn't turn up at the Annex, you would worry; which is exactly why I am writing this letter. I just wanted you to know that I did leave the community, and have successfully reached Elsewhere. I didn't get caught and released, or backed down from this challenge. But, I'm sure you have already comprehended this, as I believe those of the community have already received my memories. They have, haven't they? Well, either way, I would like to ask you for a favor. I know that the community, my peers, and my loved ones believe I got lost in the river, as this is what we originally planned in the beginning. So I realize, that you wouldn't be able to tell anyone about this letter as I have allegedly died. But, I was wondering, if you could still deliver a message to my family. I was thinking that you could say that I wrote it before I died in the river. I know it would give the message that I died purposely, but, well I did! And as my family, I want them to know that. Plus, with new emotions, they should be able to understand my intentions and feelings. This is what I'd like to tell them:

Dear Mom, Dad, and Lily,

Before I permanently leave you behind, I would just like to say a few final words. I would like to explain the reasons behind my leaving. As you know, over the past few months, I've been training to be the new Receiver. During my ceremony, we all heard how I had been specially selected to be the next Receiver. It was explained how great the honor was, and how proud we should all be. However, unexplainable pain and suffering was also mentioned. I am not sure if you have really understood the memories or even received them yet, so what I say next might confuse you. But soon enough, you will understand, as I did. Anyway, when I first began training, I received wonderful and pleasant memories such as exciting sled rides down hills covered in thick, soft snow. Or a day out in the sunshine, surrounded by beautiful landscape of plants and flowers and wildlife. All filled with color. These memories made me want to have color and everything I'd seen in our own community. No more Sameness. But The Giver then explained that without Sameness in our community, it would cause us difficulty and disagreements, as there would be choice and people would have different opinions. I didn't see the harm in being able to have choice in what kind of clothing or toy you wanted. But I then realized that more significant choices to do with matters like marriage or jobs could really affect someone were they to make a wrong choice. So I refrained from the idea of an alter in our community. I was quite convinced that our society was perfect the way it was, but with all the good memories I'd been experiencing, I was still doubtful and skeptical. I often wondered if there was somewhere Elsewhere where life was still like the past. But my mind changed once I experienced true pain. I asked The Giver what they meant when they said I would experience unbelievable pain, since I had not undergone such suffering yet. So he gave me the memory of a sunburn. I was back in the sunshine, but stayed too long under the sun's penetrating rays, causing a sunburn. It wasn't unbearably painful, it just made me a little sore. I was rather confused as the previous description of the pain I'd undergo, did not match the pain I had felt through the sunburn at all. But in truth, I had underestimated the amount of pain I'd go through.

Although I felt reassured that the suffering I'd deal with wasn't so bad, I was still nervous. But I cast it aside, therefore not prepared for the suffering I had to face. I went through things such as Warfare and Starvation, understanding what these concepts were, and what true pain felt like. These memories were grim and depressing, and stayed implanted in my mind. From these painful experiences, I was certain that I was content with our community's ways. I was still unsure about our community's ways and still often thought about Elsewhere, but I didn't want to live in a world with such extreme pain either. However, certain experiences and newly obtained knowledge pushed me to leave our community forever. During a session with The Giver, he passed on to me his favorite memory-family and love. I was transported to a room where there were children with their parents and grandparents. Grandparents are the parents of the children's parents. Anyway, when I saw the genuine smiles on their faces and the close bonds between them, I wanted that with my family and my friends. I felt their feelings of, yes, love, and happiness; and enjoyed the warm, welcoming atmosphere. I wanted this feeling in our community. I wanted to love someone who actually loved me back. But I realized that my words and actions were meaningless in our society as I could never be with someone who felt the same way. Like when I asked you if you loved me. You laughed and reminded me of Precision of Language and how the word love is a generalized word almost so meaningless it's almost obsolete. At the time, I was thinking about how could you say love was meaningless? Because honestly, I had never felt anything more meaningful in my life.

But my point is, I've left because I wasn't content with the community. I was feeling emotions and experiencing things that nobody in our society would ever understand. After receiving such wonderful memories, the community became meaningless. Nobody would ever understand me, or my actions and feelings. A perfect example was when we were having an unexpected holiday, in which everyone took a break from work, training, and school to just relax and have fun. Remember that? Anyway, on that day, I went outside to meet and catch up with my friends. It was an exceptionally beautiful day, and everything seemed perfect. However, when I cam across Asher, Fiona, and everyone else, they were all playing a game of war. I immediately thought of the memory of warfare and once again saw the face of the young boy dying of thirst. His scratched face and bleeding body...I couldn't stand it. I firmly told my friends to stop. They were annoyed and confused. They were all saying how it was just a game and meant nothing. But they knew nothing of the past as I did. It was hard, but I felt that I couldn't be around them anymore. Though we all get along, it's very surfaced and our relationship is hollow. I may feel strong feelings of love and care, but they will never match these feelings of mine as they know nothing. I will never be with them in a meaningful way. Ever. I was isolated from my peers and felt so different and alone. I want to live in a community that is filled with meaning, color, and excitement. Where nothing is planned or controlled, giving each day a new adventure. I want to choose for myself, and have a say in my life. The community, over time, became blank and unimportant to me. With the memories I was receiving, the ones filled with happiness and contentment, I began to despise our society. I hated, and still hate the fact that we are all bound so tight by the many, many rules and regulations placed that everything is so predictable and pointless. I now realize with my new knowledge, that if you want the good memories of life, you must face the bad as well. And I am prepared, I feel, to face the challenges if I were to ever experience a life of my own. One with choice, individuality, difference, and memory. I just feel I do not belong in our community anymore. I feel that I belong somewhere else. But we all know I wouldn't make it... In any case, this is mainly the reason why I am leaving. I just don't fit in.

Just to tell you Giver, everything I just wrote to my family are not only dedicated to them. But to you as well. I know you know why I've left, but I just wanted to formally explain as well. I didn't really discuss it with you after all. And if you believe there is no possible way of delivering this message to my family without disrupting our plan, then you do not have to. But I shall thank you anyway. Not just for the message you may choose to pass on, but for everything you have taught me. It is because of you that I've seen life differently, and have decided to take charge in my life for once. Being a Receiver, I've learnt so much about times long ago, teaching me about reality, and the truth of our community and it's past. I finally see how imperfect and unrealistic our community is. I realize the truth behind all the rules and traditions, and how they are meaningless and only used to mask real life. Like about release...I see all the lies now, and have gained knowledge that I cherish and will use to the best of my ability. My eyes are open and I see everything for what it is. I am not as naive or manipulative. From all the memories I've received, I see what life really feels like, and how the past was beautiful and full of excitement. I've obtained strength and courage, and am now truly brave. I have you to thank for this. Thanks to your memories and help, I've gained the power and fearlessness to actually make my way to where I belong. I now have the knowledge and courage to find Elsewhere and finally be happy.

The journey was extremely difficult. Pedaling for more than more than 6 hours really takes it's toll on you! The weather was never really in a particular state making my journey any easier. Sometimes, it was extremely hot; the sun's piercing rays beating down on me. Other times, it was damp and cold; ground wet and slippery with rain water. It became more difficult for me as I began to run out of food and left the last of the roadside farms in which I'd depend on for food. Without the food I needed, I slowly ran out of energy. Plus, I had to be aware of the search parties flying in the air looking for me. Yes, this journey was most difficult indeed. However, with the help of your memories, Gabriel, and my determination, I made it! Gabriel really pushed me to keep going. You see, Gabriel was going to be released. After painfully finding out what that meant, I just couldn't bear to leave him behind. And since you were not coming along, I felt he would help me as he partially understands me as well. What I mean by that is, well, he can receive memories too. I haven't told you this because I was afraid you would get angry. But there is really no point in hiding it anymore, so I'll explain. One night, as I was trying to lull Gabriel back to sleep. As I was patting his back, I began to think back about the memory of the sailboat you gave me. I suddenly saw the memory getting dimmer, and the boat beginning to slow down. I realized I had given some of this memory to Gabriel. I brought him with me on this trip, as I've become very close to him and felt like it was my responsibility to care for him. We have a common tie and can relate to one another. He may be the only other one who comprehends me and my feelings. I originally wanted you to come along, but as you said, the community needs you right now. But bringing Gabriel turned out to be for the better as he urged me to go on. When we were going through the cold, swirling snow, I was freezing and felt like giving up. But as I felt Gabriel going limp and shivering against me, my concerns were no longer considering me, but Gabriel. I wanted to make it for his sake. I wanted him to survive. And so I pushed myself to make it. I used the memories to help us a little to get through the cold. Using the memory of sunshine, I warmed Gabriel and myself. It really made a difference as the memory was pleasant and gave me a sense that everything would be okay. And when we reached the top of the snowy hill, I proved myself right.

There, simply sitting at the top, was a sled. I remembered this scene from the very first memory you gave me. I quickly got on the sled, holding Gabriel close, and began down the hill. The snow was soft and thick, controlling the runners. Speeding down, hope filled me as I heard the faint sound of music and laughter. Looking out, I saw twinkling green, red, and yellow lights perched on roof tops. I thought I was just hallucinating; I mean, after all, I had been starving and worn out. But as we got farther down, the homes became clearer and I saw the familiar figures of people. I write to you know from the home of my new family, happily informing you of the success of this plan. I am finally in a place where I belong, surrounded by people who really love me. My new mother and father, had not had children yet, as something had prevented them from having their own. When we arrived in their town, they had gladly taken us in. They have apparently, always wanted children. We were greeted with new clothing, a bath, and a hot mug of hot chocolate. Which I must say is absolutely delicious! Gabriel and I are being taken well cared for. I have gotten my childhood back, and have new friends and go to school again. Gabriel is still too young of course, but is growing successfully. But Giver, though I am happy here, I still miss you greatly, and think about you often. I wish you could have some with me here-you would have loved it! Free of control and full of life and happiness. I wouldn't be here without you though. I am forever grateful, and hope you are once again reunited with you daughter. You deserve happiness after all you have done for the community. I did and still truly do feel as if we were related-grandfather and grandson. Seeing those children with their grandparents just made me want some of my own. I knew it was never possible to have genetically related ones, but then I thought of you. Our relationship is close, if not, exactly, like the one I saw between the family. We look at one another for support and love each other. Throughout the course of my training, you were the one I could look to for guidance and support during the most difficult of times. You were literally the only one who could understand what I was going through. And I thank you for always being there for me. I must go now as it is getting late and I must prepare for school. Hopefully when you receive this letter, you may write back. But even if you don't at least I know, that you know, I love you. I always will no matter what.

Jonas

Yet Another Discussion

My friends come to greet me as I walk through the door, into the extremely familiar humanities room. I place my supplies on a desk and fish out my response paper and book for Literature Circles. As usual, I come prepared to class, ready and eager to discuss the chapters we'd read in the book. And as you already know, I despise the response sheets. The one I'd recently written was almost six pages; literally. I nearly always write this much. As I mentioned before, I have the ethos of an over-achiever and make sure to excel in my academics. Anyway, no matter how much I suffer in the writing part of the Literature Circles process, I really enjoy the discussions we have in class. In the small groups we thankfully form ourselves, we talk about the section we had read, and share thoughts and ideas. Elaborating on one another's thoughts, and creating hypothesis, predictions, and reasons. The discussions and books are really the only part I look forward to throughout Literature Circles. Besides the many received A+'s of course! I don't why I am so fond of the discussions...I guess I just love to talk! I love hearing other people's opinions and hear their view of the matter. It influences how I think and really helps me develop new understandings. I'm also very keen on sharing my own judgements and outlooks; as many of my teachers frequently mention. I like having a good conversation with someone. They can sometimes open my eyes to something I've never thought about before. Making me see things differently. Usually, in our discussions, we ask one another complex questions on the book-which we prepared in advance-causing the group to really reflect and debate. This reminds me; I better be getting on to the assigned questions I need to answer...

1. When Jonas learns all about colors, he claims "it isn't fair that nothing has color". Why does he say this?

2. Why does Jonas find the instruction about lying so disturbing?
3. Why does The Giver say that making choices would be frightening for people?

Well, out of the three questions, I know I am definitely not doing number one. I'm not trying to brag, or make others who find it difficult sound stupid; but, I find it too easy. At least personally, it isn't too much of a challenge. And in my opinion, I can't write much about it either.... Anyway, between the two left, I am torn. I've got so many ideas and thoughts for each one and could write so much! But I guess I'll just stick with question three. However, I may branch out a tiny bit, and tie it in a little with question two. I somehow see a connection between the two questions, and feel they can be tied together. But, as the assignment was given, I'll mostly focus on one question. (Which is, I'll repeat for those of you not paying attention, the third.) At least, I'll try. Here it goes!

Well as you should already know, Jonas' community is totally controlled. There are no real opportunities in their society to have an individual opinion or make your own decision. Everyone thinks alike and just goes with whatever the Committee places. People just automatically follow the rules and regulations given as if they were programmed robots. (But honestly, the people of the community aren't much different to robots. No one has a mind of their own, or control over their own actions.) There isn't any individuality in this society, and nobody has a voice. No one truly has a choice in what they want for themselves or others. "But now I can see colors, at least sometimes, I was just thinking; what if we hold up things that were bright red, or bright yellow, and he could choose? Instead of Sameness." "He might make the wrong choices." "Oh." Jonas was silent for a minute. "Oh, I see what you mean. It wouldn't matter for a newchild's toy. But later it does matter, doesn't it? We don't dare to let people make choices of their own." "Not safe?" The Giver suggested. "Definitely not safe," Jonas said with certainty." This quote takes place when Jonas and the Giver were discussing the right of choice in the community. Jonas is arguing how he would like to have the freedom of choice and gives the example of how he would like to hold up something red and something yellow and let the baby his father is nurturing decide which he would like. The Giver then makes Jonas realize that although the choice of a toy isn't important, larger matters like your choice of job and whom you marry is significant and it wouldn't be safe or ensured that you would make the right choices. I believe the reason why the Giver believes it would be frightening for people in the community to make choices is because they are not used to deciding things on their own, and are very naive to the consequences of a bad choice. They do not know the difference between right and wrong and could therefore make mistakes. And in our community, we understand that mistakes do happen and cannot be avoided. We also know how to deal with bad situations, and learn how to manage. But in Jonas' society, mistakes almost never occur and are not normal. Whenever they do come about, the community is very unsure of what to do, and becomes very panicked. One wrong choice can disrupt the entire community. For instance, jobs. The jobs in the community are what really helps the community function properly. If they jobs are not done, the community cannot thrive and continue it's existence. The jobs keep the people and environment secure and in tact. This is why the receiving of assignments is taken very seriously and the elders are extremely careful with which job is given to which person. Each job is dependent on one another. They are all somehow connected. If people choose their own jobs, some could make the wrong decisions and do poorly putting the community at risk.

This is only one reason why choices may be so frightening for people. Another reason is because choice could destroy the community's Sameness. The point of Sameness is to ensure there is no individuality in the society avoiding any disagreements or arguments. This makes sure people will also follow all rules and laws, avoiding rebellion and protests. Making everyone's lives easier as they don't have to deal with such problems. With choice, people will have different opinions and thoughts, which could lead to quarrels and fights. Possibly resulting in things like war and murder. With Sameness in the community, pain and suffering is prevented from occurring. So another reason why choices may be frightening for those of the community is because their choices may cause actual suffering and pain. The last reason why I believe choice may be frightening for people is because choice could lead people to go against ruling and laws. As I said before, without choice, Sameness is fostered in the society, ensuring that people will willingly obey the rules placed. But if there were choices in the community some could choose to go against the regulations. For instance, the rule of lying. In Jonas's community, you may not lie. Even the smallest mistakes in language could be considered lying. For example, there was a time when Jonas said he was starving. An adult talked to Jonas privately, chastising him for lying. He wasn't starving, but hungry. Precision of language is extremely important in the community and lying isn't tolerated. There are many, many rules in this community, and if people had the right of choice, some may break these rules and rebel. These are the reasons why the Giver thinks choice my be frightening for those of the community.

Literature Circes Returns With The Giver

I arrive in the thankfully cool Humanities room; red faced and tired from my previous P.E class. Plopping down in a chair, I place my books and pencil case on the desk alongside my friend's. I've been anticipating the long awaited return of Literature Circles and am, to be honest, disappointed it's here. Although I do very much enjoy our new book 'The Giver', I absolutely despise having to work through response sheets. True, they aren't too difficult, but they do require a lot of deep thinking and effort; which I always provide. Being the over-achiever I am, I cannot afford to be passive with my work and simply miss an opportunity to receive an A+. I'm very much, as my teachers say, a stress-bot. I absolutely have to excel and do my best. It's just the way I am. But due to this ethos of mine, the response sheets I produce take me forever to complete at home, consuming my time. This is why I do not look forward to Literature Circles. On the other hand, I love the book we are reading! It's called, as I've already mentioned, The Giver. It is written by Lois Lowry, whom I believe has an extraordinary imagination. 'The Giver' revolves around a 12 year old boy named Jonas, and his community. In his society, there is no such thing as pain and suffering, or true happiness and love. The community is controlled and everyone is basically the same; in their thoughts, beliefs, values, and appearance. The book takes a twist when Jonas is informed that he will be the new Receiver of Memories. The Receiver of Memories is the only one who obtains the memories of those in the community. The Receiver will learn and see what pain and suffering the World really goes through, and what true love and happiness feels like. He will discover the wonders and sorrows of life, giving it a whole new meaning. I do realize this description of the book is very vague and brief but it will make more sense when I finally answer the question I should be getting to which is: How do you feel about the "standard practices" or "rituals" in the community?

So as you already know, Jonas's community is totally controlled. Everyone is the same and like-minded and there is no opportunity for free-thinking or space for individuality. In this community, they have several rituals and standard practices. Meaning, they have certain ceremonies, traditions, and customs throughout the community that everyone follows. They have many rules that they must strictly follow, to make sure their "perfect" society stays in tact. There are several rules that everyone follows in correlation to the family units. A family unit is basically what are known in their community, as families. "Two children-one male, one female-to each family unit. It was written very clearly in the rules." This quote from the book expresses one rule to do with the family unit. In every family, there can only be one male and one female in each family-no more, no less. And, as it states in the book, to receive a child, the parents must fill out an application form and wait for it to be approved. "We knew, of course, that we'd receive our female, because we'd made our application and been approved." In this community, the children are not genetically related to their parents. There are women known as Birthmothers in the society, whose jobs are to produce children. Those children are then given to couples in need of them. Parents are given their children through a ceremony known as The Naming. This is the first ceremony of the twelve and starts off the celebration. During this ceremony, children are given to their assigned parents and are presented with a name. In addition to all this, the parents didn't even choose each other for marriage. They don't marry out of love or choice; it is always arranged. "The Matching of Spouses was given such weighty consideration that sometimes an adult who applied to receive a spouse waited months or even years before a match was approved and announced." This means, adults apply for marriage, and the Committee of Elders take the time to find the perfect match for that person. The Elders take into consideration all factors, such as; disposition, energy levels, intelligence, and interests. I feel the standard practices and traditions of the family unit prove the community not to be that perfect. As the community may appear to be ideal, this is clouded with the facts of how families are created. We see that the community's rules and regulations, though helpful in keeping the society safe and secure, control what we believe should be unforced, special, and intimate; like family, love, and marriage.

Really, most feelings are to be kept under control. "That's all," she replied, returning the bottle to the cupboard. "But you mustn't forget. I'll remind you for the first few weeks, but then you must do it on your own. If you forget, the Stirrings will come back. The dreams of Stirrings will come back. Sometimes the dosage must be adjusted." In Jonas's society, around the age of twelve, the children go through, well, adolescence, and experience something called a Stirring. Stirrings are when a child develops sexual urges toward the opposite gender. It is more frequent amongst boys. The Stirrings begin with a dream in which they think of the opposite sex in that particular way. In Jonas's community, it is a "tradition" to tell their dreams to their family every morning. When the parents realize their child has had their first Stirring, they explain that they must control this feeling by making sure to take a specific pill every morning. I believe this practice is interdependent with those of the family unit. The Stirrings are aimed to be controlled because if they aren't, it will cause difficulty in The Matching of Spouses, as some may develop intimate relationships with others whom they aren't able to marry. This practice and rule ensures that The Matching of Spouses can go on without any distractions or problems, and that the community can remain intact. This is only one of the many feelings the law aims to control. The rules are especially targeted at one's feelings, because emotion plays a very big part in people's choices. The rules make sure that emotion don't get in the way of people's jobs and duties in the community, ensuring that it will stay secure and in tact. There are also many ceremonies and celebrations used to maintain the community.

"There were only two occasions of release which were not punishments. Release of the elderly, which was a time of celebration for a life well and fully lived; and the release of a newchild, which always brought a sense of what-could-we-have-done." In Jonas's community, there is something known as release. Release can either be something positive or negative; it depends on the situation. It is sometimes used as punishment, like when someone has broken a great rule several times; but it can also be used as celebration like, as you know, releasing the elderly. Usually, release is a good thing. However, nobody really knows what happens when you are released. All they know is you walk through a door and are never seen in the community again. In my opinion, release is the equivalent of death. I think when you walk through the door you are killed somehow. The ritual of release, I think, is only used to mask what should be feared in the community. In this instance, death is disguised with a celebratory release. In fact, a lot of ceremonies and celebrations in Jonas's community are either used to mask the sad truth; or to represent something. "The little girl nodded and looked down at herself, at the jacket with it's row of large buttons that designated her as a Seven. Fours, Fives, and Sixes all wore jackets that fastened down the back so that they would have to help each other dress and would learn interdependence." Every time a group of children progress to the next year of age, they have a ceremony to acknowledge this, and they receive something to express their year of age. For instance, when children become nine, they get their first bike, or when children become twelve, they are given their job assignment in which they will work for the rest of their lives. The quote is referring to a girl that is now seven and received her first jacket with buttons down the front. In her earlier years, she, and those in her age group, had buttons down the back to teach them interdependence. The buttons down the front represent how they have grown to learn this and have developed. I feel this ritual of receiving items to show your age and represent your growth, tells us how in Jonas's community, everything is seemingly done for a reason and has a purpose. Nothing is really ever done for no reason. There must be something significant about it before it is done. That's simply how this community works. In my opinion, the standard practices and rituals in Jonas's community, when deeply looked into, show us how imperfect their community really is. The traditions and customs prove that though the community seems to be a Utopian society, there is more to it than what it appears. I feel the standard practices and rituals aren't as meaningful and deep as they seem to be, and are there to just simply control the society to being "perfect". Some of these practices and rituals actually just mask and hide the community's flaws and it's reality. Which is, that their society is far from perfect.

It's All Over....

Yes, I know. This is, for those of you who don't know, the final update on the White Mountains. It is, I'm afraid, a tragic and difficult time for some. And though you may be feeling an outburst of misery and despair; cheer up! This isn't literally my last blog post ever! Of course not! You will, guarantied, hear more from me. Though, it is my ultimate posting on the fabulous book, The White Mountains. Throughout my reading of this particular book; all of you people out there have been going on the "journey" with me. We've all been following Will, Henry, and Beanpole on their exciting voyage to the mountains, which has come to an end. My class and I have just finished the novel, and have, naturally, completed the worksheet and discussion that ties in with it. But, as you might have expected, there just has to be a post to go with everything as well. This post, has to do with the question: "How has Will changed during the course of the novel." This specific question has several answers and responses to it. Here are some of mine....

I'll begin with the fact that Will isn't as naive as he used to be. Throughout the course of his journey, Will had seen so much more of the World and was opened up to what it really was like and what it held. He caught sight of many man-made constructions and inventions, as well as old towns and villages. Will was able to see the real World for once and from that, gathered much information on what lay in the past as well as in his generation. In the beginning of the story, Will knew nothing about human capability and what they were able to produce and create. He wasn't aware of their independence; Will didn't realize what he was competent of doing or that humans created wondrous inventions by themselves. During this time, Will had himself thinking that everything made and developed came from the Tripods- that they were the only ones proficient enough to perform such tasks. "I fell silent. I was trying to imagine it, to see it in my mind as he had seen it in reality. But my mind could not accept it." (Pg.13) This quote was stated by Will; whilst he and a good friend Jack, were discussing the possibilities of man-made establishments. Jack had just explained to Will how he had actually seen the hulk of an old rusted ship, and how it was much bigger than their village. When Jack told Will that the ship was constructed by man, Will was at a loss for words. And that quote above, is what Will was thinking after Jack had explained. Will has obviously never been exposed to man-made developments or human ability; but throughout his voyage to the White Mountains, this changes. During his voyage, Will, for the very first time, sees some of the inventions and creations he had been hearing about. With this new discovery, Will grasps a new level of understanding and comprehension. He finally realizes what humans are capable of doing, and what they can construct. "There were thousands of shops, and we looked in many of them. Their contents amazed us. Great bolts of mildewed cloth, still showing weird colors and patterns; row on row of crumbling cardboard boxes, full of rotting leather shoes, musical instruments, a few familiar but most incredibly weird; figures of women, made from a strange hard substance, clothed in tattered remnants of dresses." This quote was stated also by Will, when he, Beanpole, and Henry were exploring the old town known as the City of Ancients. On the way to the mountains, they had to pass through the area, and the group decided to explore whilst traveling. From passing though the City of Ancients, Will was able to see some real evidence of what people had made before. He had then become aware that humans were in fact, capable of making amazing items and objects, and that the Tripods weren't the only ones. Will, throughout the novel, has become less naive and more conscious about his surroundings and people. This is one extremely big change I've seen in Will; but of course, there's more....

Aside from being more knowledgeable, Will has gained new found confidence and bravery. Throughout this journey, there were various difficult tasks and hardships along the way. Having to face these hassles and provide solutions, Will has definitely obtained bravery, and a little more confidence. "I was making a trail bite at the leather when he made the first cut, and my whole body jerked and I very nearly pulled my hand free from Henry's grasp. The pain was excruciating." This quote, as usual, was said by Will. This quote is referring to the event where Beanpole was cutting out a tracking device from Will's armpit. Let me explain this odd situation. There was a certain period in the book, where Will was abducted by a Tripod, but surprisingly let go with no harm done. Or so Will thought.... Later on in the journey, Beanpole notices a small, round, metal object embedded in Will's armpit. They discuss it for a while, and come to the conclusion that the metal substance is a tracking device which the Tripod implanted in Will, to be able to follow their group. The trio continually tries to leave the Tripod behind, but after several failed attempts, they decide it is completely impossible. This could prevent the boys from reaching the White Mountains, as they could be captured in the process. As a solution to this, Will decides that Henry and Beanpole should leave him to be found, and that they should carry on. Because without Will and his tracking device, Beanpole and Henry could possibly make it to the mountains. Trying to keep the group together, Beanpole suggests that since the device is not too deep in Will's skin, it is possible to cut it out with the knife they possess. Will actually goes through with the insane idea, and in the end does successfully get the device removed. Though, he had to go through a lot of pain and agony just to ensure the Tripod stopped following them, and that they can reach the mountains. The fact that Will really pushes through with this painful plan shows how brave and confident he is now. As a matter of fact, the event also portrays Will's dedication. He only allowed the painful incision because he was so determined to get to the mountains. He was, as I've said before, really brave to go through such suffering. In addition to all that, Will has acquired more knowledge on the Tripods. In Wherton, Will never really understood what the Tripods were and their capabilities. Throughout the course of this book, Will really made a transition, and now knows much more about them. He has a better comprehension of what and who they are, and is now more aware. "The others came to me. We stared up, in awe, at the Tripod. It stood there, titled slightly, but upright. From where we stood it showed no sign of damage. But it's tentacle drooped like a dead snake. Our tormentor would not torment us again." This quote, was naturally, spoken by Will. It deals with the event that had taken place a few moments before. Will was slowly being lifted to his demise by a Tripod, when he used the grenade that was thankfully placed in his hand. Will aimed and threw right at the tentacle clutching him, and tore it, letting himself fall right back down to the ground. The new information he gained on the Tripods, was that they in fact, had a weakness. The Tripods could be defeated with man-made objects. Though everyone insisted and believed Tripods were indestructible, Will had discovered they could be conquered using man-made constructions and weapons. This really explained why they kept human inventions a secret; because if people were aware of what they could create and produce, they could finally demolish the Tripods. Though the Tripods know they are bigger and stronger, they are still conscious and mindful that humans are intelligent and can be just as cunning. They could, for example, go to war with the Tripods and possibly win. To prevent this, the Tripods make sure all man-made structures are kept a secret. Even the littlest things like glasses are not to be discovered. I guess it's because when people realize they can make such objects, they will move on to bigger, more threatening items. Like weaponry and explosives. So basically, Will has discovered Tripods have an actual weakness. Throughout the book, Will has definitely developed a deeper understanding of the Tripods. He has also developed in bravery, dedication, confidence, and intelligence. Will has gained a lot from his voyage, and has really evolved as a character.

Freedom! In the White Mountains...

"The bitter thing was all the spirit, all the gallantry, was wasted. For even more than inferiors, they accepted and looked forward to being Capped. It was a part of becoming a knight, or of turning from a girl to lady. Thinking of this, I saw how good things could be meaningless in isolation. What value did courage have, without a free and challenging mind to direct it?" (p. 111)

Well, when this quote was mentioned in the book, Will was having, as you should already know, a luxurious life at the castle. He was experiencing and enjoying the life of a knight. Will was being specially cared for by the Comtesse herself; a very kind, goodhearted, generous, understanding, and caring queen. In addition to this, Will, was getting the attention of the Comtesse's daughter, Eloise. The two became very close and developed a strong friendship and bond. Will felt as though they were more than friends, and that Eloise really cared about him. At least, that is what Will thought. In reality, Eloise, being Capped, would always have her mindset towards the Tripods. No matter how thoughtful and compassionate she appeared, Eloise still belonged to the Tripods. She was, like every other Capped person, fully devoted and committed to the Tripods. Whatever the Tripods commanded, would be done. It was the same for her lovely mother, the Comtesse. Though the Comtesse is extremely considerate and affectionate, she is still in the hands of the Tripods. The quote relates to all this; which is in correlation to the concept of freedom. This particular quote explains how Will feels about the Comtesse and Eloise being Capped. He is basically saying that there isn't a point to their kindness, courage, and thoughts; due to the fact that they do not have a mind of their own to direct it all. They are not capable of thinking profound thoughts or lead themselves to do what they would like. They are not FREE to think, feel, or do what they want. When you are Capped, basically, you are not a FREE person anymore. This is how the quote is related to the concept of freedom. But, honestly, the whole chapter is based on freedom. For example, Chapter 6, reveals Will's struggle for FREEDOM. Will loves life at the castle. He likes the all the service and camaraderie at the castle. Will also enjoyed the care of the Comtesse, as she kind of played the role of his mother. He especially, as I said before, liked the attention and friendship provided by Eloise. But, there was the uncertainty of whether to continue the journey to the mountains, or live the life he had always dreamed about. Will wasn't sure what he wanted anymore. He wanted to stay and live at the castle, but wanted freedom as well. And Will, sadly, couldn't have both of his desires-one was to be chosen. To live at the castle, Will would have to sacrifice his freedom for a lifetime of service and forced devotion to the Tripods. Will wanted to continue life at the castle with everyone else, mostly Eloise, but in order to do this, Will would lose his freedom in the process. He will lose himself. His intelligence, courage, and kindness would be wasted. Exactly what happened to everyone else at the palace. Though, after contemplating for many hours, Will chose the path of freedom. He had come to this decision mostly because he had realized Will wouldn't get to see Eloise ever again. AS queen, she would leave forever to serve the Tripods. This snapped Will right out of his trance, and helped him understand that nothing was worth getting Capped-losing your freedom and freewill. And now, he is continuing the voyage to the White Mountains... As you can see, Chapter 6, and maybe even the whole book. revolve around freedom.

Chapter 6 of the White Mountains

1. How were the Tripods able to control the people?

2. Find evidence (quotations from the novel) to show that even though Will is comfortable living at the castle, he is frustrated that the Comte, Comtesse, and Eloise have been capped.

3. Find evidence (quotes) to show how Will feels about being capped.

These questions are the ones being asked, and the ones I've got to answer right now, right here. Anyway, so far, Will, Henry, and Beanpole have come to a resting point, as Will has collapsed of exhaustion. They were found by the Comtesse, who being so kind and generous, had decided to take them in to the Castle of the Red Tower. In which she lived by the way, with the Comte and their daughter Eloise. This is a very brief summary, but will be much clearer once I answer those three questions...

Well, in the village of Wherton, where Will originally came from before he left; the Tripods controlled the villagers by Capping them. The Tripods gave them the idea that Capping was an excellent experience and that it was meant to be a celebration or coming of age ceremony. Plus, the Tripods, I think, use the vagrants as an example of what could happen if you aren't capped. As you know, vagrants have a tendency to act a little strange and unusual. Actually, they are quite abnormal. Anyway, the villagers are made to be afraid and terrified of these vagrants. In my opinion, the Tripods take advantage of this, and use the vagrants to kind of scare the villagers into getting capped as well. In addition to all this, the villagers are led to believe that the Tripods are their rulers and that they should be thankful for their existence; which they are taught at school. But the reason the villagers believe all these lies, are because they Tripods make sure they are all naive about the World, independence, and human capability. They are just as ignorant as Will. You see where he gets it? Anyway, in France, where Will is currently at, the way Tripods control the people there is practically the same, with a little more tweaks. They are still Capped, and led to believe that Capping is a celebration. For example, on page 115, it explains how girls get capped as well, but that they must wear a turban around their heads until their hair has grown out. Then, they have a celebratory ball to honor it. Plus, there is also a giant feast and tournament for boys before they are capped. (Pgs. 121-122) So you can see they really look forward to their capping ceremony and believe it is of importance as well. They do also believe the Tripods are meant for good, though, they aren't, I don't think, scared into it. It doesn't seem necessary. Plus, surprisingly enough, they are actually generous and giving people. At least those in the castle are. I mean, take the Comtesse for instance. She is a very warmhearted, giving person, but she does it because she wants to, not because she has to. In Wherton, the woman who was of the same personality as the Comtesse, was only generous because she had to be. It was kind of her job, you know? (Pg.104) So as you can see, the Tripods in France are actually quite similar to those in Wherton, but a little less 'strict' with ruling.

Okay, so now onto the second question. Will, as I've mentioned before, wound up in the Castle of the Red Tower. Well in the castle he has met a particular family (The Comte, Comtesse, and their daughter Eloise.) that he absolutely adores. On pg.110, it explains how Will is closer to the Comtesse and Eloise than he is with the Comte. The Comte, apparently, is a large, ugly man, who has a reputation for bravery during the tournament and hunt. He and Will have very little conversation, as the Comte has very bad English, and is friendly but awkward towards Will. In truth, Will is much closer to the Comtesse. Pg.113-114 explain how Eloise is like her mother (the Comtesse), which brings out the Comtesse's personality. The Comtesse, has a soothing gentleness, and has a deep feeling for all living creatures; animal or human. She is also very kind, and intelligent, and Will feels comfortable around her. But out of the entire family, Will enjoys Eloise's company the most. On pg.124, it exhibits how Will feels about Eloise and how much he enjoys her company. The talk and take walks together down in the castle's gardens. Will, in fact, has a small blooming crush on Eloise. But no matter how comfortable he feels in the castle with this this family; he still hates the fact that they are capped. On Pg.111, it clearly projects this. "The bitter thing was that all the spirit, all the gallantry, was wasted. For even more than their inferiors, they accepted and looked forward to being Capped. It was a part of becoming a knight, or of turning from girl to lady. Thinking of this, I saw how good things could be meaningless in isolation. What value did courage have, without a free and challenging mind to direct it?" That quote is from Will's point of view, stating, that though this family is courageous, intelligent, and kindhearted; there is no use as they do not have an independent mind to put these traits to use. They are still controlled by the Tripods. This is what really annoys Will.

In the beginning, Will states he would "rather die than be Capped." (Pg. 39) And throughout the whole journey, Will had the same exact mindset. I mean, that is the whole point of their voyage to the White Mountains; to search for a place where they could all live in freedom and free-thinking. Anyway, in the beginning of Chapter 6, Will still has the same thoughts, (which is quite obvious since he hates the fact the Comte, Comtesse, and Eloise are capped.) but those thoughts slowly disintegrate... Will gets tempted to stay behind at the castle to live a life of luxury with Eloise; and get Capped! This was really surprising when I read it, because Will has come extremely far in this voyage, and has risked so much, and yet he wants to give up and throw all that effort away? That is... 'interesting'. Anyway, on Pgs. 121-125 it shows what is restraining him from continuing his journey to the White Mountains. One reason is because he feels left out in their group of three. Beanpole and Henry have recently been ignoring him and excluding him from conversation. He does want to be loyal to the group, but he doesn't see the point, as they ignore his existence anyway. But another reason he wants to stay at the castle, is because he wants to live with the Comte, Comtesse, and Eloise. Will has always wanted the kind of family who really care and love him, as well as encourage him in everything. And he believes that this family in the castle is perfect! Plus, he loves Eloise's company, and feels she actually notices him and cares for him, and so does the Comtesse. Lastly, he wants to stay because the life he could live in the castle as a knight is very inviting. Back in Wherton, Will lived in a common, if not, poor life. He had a small home, and school wasn't that great either. But in the castle, where he was invited to stay, he might have the opportunity to live in splendor. He wants to experience all these events and activities such as the tournament and hunt, and he is willing to be capped in order to do so. On pg.124, it states how Will isn't that afraid of being Capped anymore. "Providing the Capping was a success, I reminded myself. But why should it not be? Captain Curtis's warning belonged to the time when this language had been meaningless gibberish to me. Now, even though I was still far from speaking it perfectly, I understood it. Nor was I likely to become a Vagrant through resisting when there was so much to gain by acquiescence." Will is prepared to go through with the Capping process just to live the perfect life he has been searching for, which he believes will be in the castle.

BEANPOLE!

Yes, I know. This is exactly what you've been anticipating the entire week. The follow-up to my earlier post on our new reading book, The White Mountains. But no need to stress; as I am here now ready to write about the next assigned topic. The latest question by the way, is "How will Beanpole help Will and Henry on their journey to the White Mountains?" Okay, remember where we left off? Because I'm so nice, I'll summarize and remind you. In my previous posting, I introduced you to the main character Will. I also informed you on his difficult situation, and his exciting journey to the White Mountains in search of freedom. Plus, I explained how Will and I are alike in terms of our traits. Well... is it all coming back to you now? Because if it isn't, you will have trouble comprehending this post. Anyway, the new question mentions two other characters; Henry and Beanpole. I'll start by vaguely explaining who Henry is, as he isn't really who I'm meant to be focusing on. Anyhow, Henry is Will's obnoxious cousin, who later in the story becomes one of Will's companions on his journey to the mountains. Though in the beginning, Henry appears to be a repulsive, insensitive bully; he turns out to be quite a smart, kind-hearted boy as well as a helpful friend on the journey. He really came through for Will, and proved that it was a good choice to let him tag along. For instance, when Will had injured himself by spraining his ankle whilst running in the woods; Henry took the liberty of carrying Will all the way back to an abandoned hut. Henry even cleaned and organized the small hut, as well as searched for food. He really is pretty sweet and compassionate, right? So that is, very basically, Henry. Okay, now on to Beanpole. He is really the center of this post, so, I'll just carefully explain who he is and his place in the story. Beanpole is an extremely new addition to Will and Henry's group. The boys had just met each other, after Beanpole helped Will and Henry escape from their little mishap. (Will and Henry had just arrived in a small town, and were captured by the villagers. Beanpole had decided to help them escape, and that's where they first got acquainted with one another.) Once Will and Henry had explained where they were heading, Beanpole had asked if he could come with them immediately. I know it seems quite strange for a boy like Beanpole, to have made such a great decision to leave everything behind, right then and there. But to be honest, he doesn't have much to lose. Both his parents had passed away, and he was being cared for by his aunt and uncle. He of course is grateful that they are providing him with food and a home, but there isn't any real, deep connection between them. Their relationship is mutual; the bond joining all of them is very weak. For example, there aren't any genuine feelings of love between a single of one of them. Beanpole's aunt and uncle don't show any appreciation or awareness of his achievements such as his intelligence. Plus, the support Beanpole should receive isn't given by either uncle or aunt. Although, I am not sure. The book never did mention Beanpole's "parent's" thoughts on the matter, but since Beanpole is so eager to come and so prepared to leave, I'm just guessing. However, I know for a fact, that Beanpole, like Will, wants to be free. Though not for the same reason-Beanpole wants to be free, because he is afraid that once he is capped, his knowledge will be taken away. You see? There is literally nothing to restrain him from departing. He is ready and willing to go on the voyage for a better life. But I do believe that Beanpole's addition to the group was a fortunate happening, as he can really help on the journey. Here's how...

Beanpole, I think, can help Will and Henry on their journey to the White Mountains in multiple ways. Firstly, Beanpole can help make their trip faster as he knows the land very well. Since he has been living there for several years, he is very familiar with the area, and would be able to guide all of them to where there needed to go. Beanpole also knows numerous shortcuts which should lessen their travel time. For instance, the Shmand-Fair. This was one shortcut they had taken, which had spared a lot of time. Without Beanpole of course, this would not have been possible. Another way Beanpole can help Will and Henry on their travels, is by being able to cover for them. Beanpole is able to not only speak English, but the language spoken in that area. If Henry and Will were left without Beanpole, the could get into many difficult situations. If the townsfolk do not understand what is being said, they will get slightly suspicious, and most likely capture Will and Henry. I mean, that is what happened to the pair before. So basically, if they ever get into a position where they need to talk to a local, Beanpole could speak on their behalf, and help their group seem more inconspicuous; he could help blend them in with the everyone else. Beanpole could also help Will and Henry on their voyage with his great amount of knowledge and intelligence. For instance, Beanpole always had an issue with his eyesight. He couldn't see very well; it was blurry and he probably couldn't read. But in the end, he came up with a fantastic solution. He invented glasses! They aren't common anywhere in the story, by the way. Therefore, it's quite an advancement. Anyway, Beanpole came up with this idea after thinking about telescopes. He realized that they helped people see distant things much better. So, he took two lenses, and created his glasses! Which really made an improvement, as he can see more appropriately now. My point is, Beanpole can help by using his problem solving skills in complex situations. As well as making use of his inventing abilities. Plus, there's his knowledge of the land and the language there. As you can see, Beanpole can really help and make a positive difference in the journey to the White Mountains.

How is Will Like ME?

The White Mountains. This, by the way, is our latest reading book in Literature Circles. Yes, Literature Circles has once again commenced; with a new book, new groups, and a slightly new format of how we do things. But of course, we still have blog posts to write up, so don't worry. However, this set of posts will have different topics and content, compared to last time's. Before, we just had to write about what went on during our discussions, what we gained from them, and how we thought we did. This time, we get to write about a variety of things with each post. Or at least I think that's how it works. Anyway, the set subject for this post is how Will is like me. Wait... You have no idea who Will is! Okay, okay, let me roughly explain. In our book, The White Mountains, (Which for your information, is written by John Christopher, and is the first book of a trilogy.) Will is the main character. He is a fourteen-year old boy who decides to leave his town in search of the White Mountains, where it is believed that he may find freedom. You see, this setting takes place in the future, where some huge pieces of machinery called Tripods rule. These three-legged creatures can control man-kind by implanting some sort of metal ring in people's heads, which is know as a "Capping Ceremony". Though many humans believe it is a ceremony to celebrate a boy becoming a man, (Capping only happens to boys, it rarely ever happens to girls.) it is really just a boy losing his mind to a machine. Fortunately, Will knows this, and wants to avoid it. So, after hearing about the White Mountains, he decides to go there in search of independence. Now, after hearing a vague description of Will, I can get on with the task at hand. You know, how Will is like me. Well, it's time to get into detail about his traits, that hopefully will increase your understanding about his character...

Will Parker. As I see it, he has quite an intriguing character, and an interesting mix of traits. He seems to have the characteristics an ordinary child nowadays would possess. First of all, I can say that Will is rather disobedient. Mostly towards his father really. I mean, within the book, there is a certain part where Will meets a man named Ozymandias. Ozymandias, incidentally, is a vagrant; which is a person who's Capping went wrong, therefore they kind of have mental problems and act bizarre. Due to vagrants' unusual behavior, villagers choose not to socialize with them. The townsfolk do believe that they have a duty to provide vagrants with shelter and food, but the interacting should end there. So anyway, word got out that Will was developing a friendship with Ozymandias, and was finally reported to Will's father. Although Will's father made it clear that he should not communicate with Ozymandias anymore, Will still did because he felt there was something special about Ozymandias that he hadn't discovered yet. He was just too curious! Oh, yes, Will is also an EXTREMELY curious person. For instance, Will likes to explore the possibilities of man-made establishments such as ships, watches, etc. Seeing as the Tripods control all products made, it is an amazing thought to Will that man could have made such advancements. Will loves to ask many questions about this particular topic, and can continuously daydream about it for hours! But I guess Will asks so many questions because he has a fairly naive character as well. Will doesn't know much about human capability and independence. I mean, the fact that he even questions if it was possible for humans to create such "progress" in invention completely proves this. He kind of believes that everything was established by the Tripods. But, Will has a fabulous trait that many in his village lack; Will is a very free thinker. What I mean is, Will has his own independent, bold thoughts, and really sticks out of the crowd. An example of this, is that even though everyone says and tries to persuade Will that Capping is a great opportunity and experience; Will would honestly rather DIE than be Capped. I guess he feels this way because, when you are capped, you are pretty much dead. When you think about it, once you are capped, you can't think for yourself, you aren't unique anymore, and you don't have an individual personality. Basically, you lose yourself. So Will's feelings, though suicidal, make sense. In a way. Well, those are Will's major traits, here are the ones we have in common...

Out of Will's various traits, I have his disobedience, curiosity, and free thinking. Let me elaborate... Like Will, I am disobedient. And yes, mostly to my parents. For example, my sister and I ALWAYS fight. Literally. I believe we fight on a daily basis to be honest. (And by the way, my sister is the one to be blamed. I think.) Back on track, my parents are continuously informing me to leave my sister alone and mind my own business. But of course, as you've probably guessed, I absolutely do NOT listen. I don't do it on purpose. It's just too hard! I mean, my sister ALWAYS gets on my nerves, and ALWAYS acts so obnoxious and irritating! (But I must give her credit for being nice SOMETIMES. I guess.) I'm sure many people can understand this. Another example is, my parents are constantly telling me to watch my mouth and my tone. Because every so often, when I'm grumpy or tired, I tend to talk in a rude way with a annoyed attitude. And no matter how much my parents shout and yell at me to get my act together, I still occasionally behave that way. Sorry! Anyway, the point of this is that I sometimes disobey my parents and don't listen to them. Okay, BESIDES having Will's sense of disobedience, I like him, am quite curious. For instance, while I'm in class. During lessons, I love to ask questions, and discuss with my peers. I like elaborating on the matter at hand, and asking many questions to help my understanding. Plus, I just like to know and increase my knowledge. I also enjoy listening to other people's opinions and building on that. I love to talk! Anyway, another example of my curiosity is, in the subject of family and friend arguments. I'm not particularly sure why I like to know about people's problems and bickering, but I do. I mean I like to know what is going on between people. And I have a tendency to ask many questions about that, which can get on people's nerves. Okay, so, the purpose of those examples were to back up the fact that I, like Will, am curious. The last trait Will and I share, is the characteristic of being a free thinker. I don't have a specific example for this, because honestly, I am ALWAYS a free thinker. I mean, I know some people that just follow what everyone else is doing. They don't really know who they are. But me, I don't give in to peer pressure. I think for myself and am not afraid to speak my mind. I don't care if my opinions and thought are completely different to everyone else's. For instance, (Okay, now I have an example.) if I like something and other people keep telling me how stupid they think it is or something, I continue with my own thoughts. I may take in what others say, but in the end, it's really my opinion that matters the most, to me. Now, you've learnt who Will is and how I'm like him. Actually, I'm sure a lot of us share Will's characteristics. Anyhow, it's sadly the end of this post. But I will continue writing up posts, so keep up!

Making Connections ppt

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Resolutions and an Update on my Strange Life!

Happy New Years! Can you believe it's a new year again? Because frankly, I can't. I don't know about you, but 2009 really rushed by! It just feels like that year isn't over yet, for me at least. I simply can't wrap my head around the idea that 2010 is finally here! But I guess, as I always do, I'll come around and get used to this fact. Anyway, every new year, almost everyone creates new years resolutions and tries to reach their goal. But honestly, how many of us have actually succeeded in fulfilling our goals? As a matter of fact, how many of us actually take the time to think of these goals? I'm just saying that some of us don't truly think about these things. Like in my case. I do occasionally make a resolution for the new year, but I have to admit that I often don't reach my goal. That's probably because I choose not to bother or care that much. But I hope this year will be different; I want to try and make an effort to reach my set standards. I guess we'll see! So now, let me share my goals!

1. Actually work on my goals and prioritize to complete and fulfill them.

I mean, you know, if I'm going to get anywhere, I've got to stay committed!

2. Get fitter and eat healthier.

My mom insists that I do a sport or something to stay fit and healthy, so I've decided to go ahead and try. As for eating healthier, I want to try eating more veggies, (gulp) and drinking a lot more water! You see, over break, I kinda got sick from lack of water, so I'll push myself to drink it more!

3. Be kinder and more thoughtful towards family, friends, and people in general!

For this goal, I'm mainly focusing on having these virtues when it comes to family. For example, my behaviour towards my parents and sister needs work. (Especially my behaviour towards my sister! But in truth, the way she treats me isn't really any better!)

4. Maintain relationships with friends and open up to new people.

This last goal is something that would be nice for me to reach, because once I make a decent batch of friends, I stay enclosed in that group. And I choose not to let others in . Which I know is an extremely bad attitude to have, particularly because I'm in an international school and I move a lot. So I will try to complete this successfully as well as my other goals.

Okay, now that I've got that first part out of the way, I'll work on the second half of the task. The task by the way, is to write a piece that can focus on whatever we wish to write about. It's free choice, with a minimum of four paragraphs. Now, I've chosen to plainly write about my life so far. As in, the main events occuring in my weird yet wonderful life. But be prepared, as some, maybe even most, of my topics will be pretty sad. At least, they aren't that happy. Here it goes!

Everyone has a favorite experience or moment from their holidays. Some, like me, have more than one. And many, have an event or moment that they absolutely loathed and hated. But in my case, I didn't really have anything happen on my Christmas holiday that I hated. I mean, the event that I want to focus on, is more on the sad side rather than the anger filled one.

My worst event during vacation was actually at the end of my holiday. When my mother, my sister, and I had to fly from the Philippines back to Malaysia. I wasn't sad because I had to fly on a plane or go to school; in fact, I quite like those things. I was unhappy because I had to leave my dad again. For your information, my dad was based there in Batangas (a province in the Philippines), which meant he had to move there. Most people would wonder why we couldn't have just gone and moved with him. Well, both my parents decided it would be best to allow my sister and I to finish our school year in Malaysia. So that is what we are doing. Sadly, my father still had to go. Without us. Tears rolled down my face like small raindrops falling from the sky when I had to say good-bye. That was literally the first time I've ever done that; when I come to think about it. You know, cry at the airport. It was pretty embarrassing, but hey, I couldn't help myself! I never realized how much I loved my dad until he actually left. Life is just isn't the same without his voice echoing around the house. And it's pretty empty without his lame jokes that still always seem to make my smile and giggle. I still and will always miss him. Until we move there at least. Oh yeah, did I mention we are moving there after I finish the sixth grade?

Well we are. That was the plan all along. That we move and rejoin with my dad back home in the Philippines. Once my sister and I finish the school year we started. To be honest, I'm not so sure how I feel about that. The moving I mean. I'm pretty much okay with it, I think. I'm pretty familiar with the routine; move into a new house, go to a new school, make new friends, settle down, etc. I'm fine with all those things. I can deal with making new friends and going to a new school. I've had lot's of practice throughout the years. Trust me. It's just that this particular move has a few differences in it's routine compared to the one I'm used to. A huge difference is that we won't exactly be living with my dad. My mom, my sister, and I will be living in Manila, whilst my dad continues staying in Batangas. This is much better than our situation now, but I still wish dad could live in the same house. I just like it that way. Plus, my dad gets lonely living all alone in his house! But my parents did tell me that we will all get together every weekend. At least that's the plan. (You can drive from Manila to Batangas or vice versa.) Anyway, another big difference to the move is that I might not have that hard of a time making friends and knowing the school. (The key word in that last sentence being "might".) I say that because one of my best friends from ISKL moved to Manila, and is going to a school that I may possibly go to as well! I am quite happy with this possibility. Already having a friend there would make adjusting to the school much easier! And I won't feel so isolated and lost, you know? This is just a thought. Okay, so the last big difference I can think of is the house we will be living in. I'm not trying to brag, but normally, when my family is abroad we live in fairly big houses. Not like a mansion of course, but luxurious and reasonable for our family. Now back on track; when we move to Manila the house we will live in is tiny! Since my dad is working in his own country, he gets paid less, so to save money, I'll live in a box. Or something similar! But the grounds and location of the apartment makes it worthwhile to live there. Oh I just remembered! Once I move, I can get a dog!

This is a definite upside to the big, nerve-wrecking move! My family knows how much I want a dog- a lot. They also know how long I've waited for the moment they will finally say yes- around forever. But, all that wishing and dreaming has finally become a reality! Finally! But, there is one condition. (Which was set by my mother, who by the way, doesn't seem too happy about a dog.) I am literally the only one in our house that will be taking care of the dog. As in, I have to do all the work all on my own! If I don't follow that rule, my mom will immediately take the dog to the pound! And that is a very bad and scary place for any dog! When I said I wanted a dog, I thought everyone in my family could pitch in with the work. But apparently, that's not what is going to happen. With the one condition, I'm not so sure about owning a dog anymore. I mean, when it comes to pets, I'm not the best owner around. I've had pets before, and to be honest, I didn't really care for them after about two months passed. I just get bored with them I guess. When that happens, they either pass away, or my mother is left to care for them. But since she said that won't happen this time, I can only rely on myself to be responsible and take good care of my dog. But that isn't something I can promise will work out. So, I don't think I'll get a dog. Maybe. I'm just afraid for my dog's life. It might not last long in my hands! But we'll see how things turn out. Who knows? Maybe a miracle will happen and my mom will change her mind about that painful condition! I really, really want a dog of my own, so I won't have to play with someone else's and have my heartbroken every time I have to leave! Take my best friend Cindy for instance, she has her own Golden Retriever. However for her, it's not so much of a struggle to care for it, because her whole family helps. (Sigh) I suppose I won't get my dream dog after all. When I really give the idea some thought, I realize it takes a lot of patience, time, and reliability to raise a dog, which is something I'm not ready for. Yet. People like Cindy are dependable enough to care, unlike me. Oh and speaking of Cindy...

By the way, this last paragraph isn't about really about Cindy, but relates to her in the sense that she is a best friend. In other words, this last section is about another one of my closest friends. Her name is Irene. I must admit, I haven't known her for very long, but she truly is a very dear friend. I know a whole bunch of different things about her as she does about me. We've shared many secrets and times together, and I can always rely on her to be there for me. She is in fact, one of the nicest people I've ever known. Therefore, I will miss her terribly when she moves. That's right, Irene is moving. She is leaving back for her home country, Korea. I know it shouldn't make that much of a difference since I'm leaving as well, but her situation isn't the same. I, like many of my other peers who are moving, are finishing this sixth grade school year. Irene unfortunately, is leaving in February. Which is quite far from the end of the year. As if that wasn't sad enough, her family has decided that she will not be attending school for the rest of her stay in Malaysia. She could continue, but there isn't really a point since she's leaving in around a month. I will of course try my hardest to keep in touch with her, but you know, it isn't the same. So, while she is still actually here, I'm making the most of it. She lives extremely close to me, so of course, there will be some sleep-overs and chatting. But her time to leave is coming quite fast. So Irene, if you are reading this, I've got a few things to say. Irene, you are as I've mentioned before, one of the nicest people I've ever met. I could always confide in you, and I could be sure that you'd keep my secrets safe. You're a very forgiving person, and I admire that. Thanks for supporting me in everything, and thank you for always being there for me. I'm going to miss you so much when you leave, but hopefully we can keep in touch. True, I haven't known you for that long, but I know you and will always know you as my best friend. Okay, I'm not sure if she will actually read that, but it's okay. I can always tell her later on. Anyway, this is the conclusion of my epic story. So far. You know, I have a lot more days ahead of me, along with many more stories to tell. So, until the next time!